Thursday, August 21, 2008 . 7:08 AM

Been some time since i last post. really busy with exams reading and such. yeah well the pace of stuff seems to have slowed down for awhile.. Stuff seemed to have gotten better for awhile, with my air con and com repaired. Well yeah until recently. Now im going to have tution on every friday afterooon. This really kinda sucks, mon~wed lost to esp weekend for tution and tennis, now friday lost. and erm thursday still a school day.. Freedom they say, load of bullshit what freedom do we have as every damn person on earth is probably being used/controlled by someone else. Modern society disgusts me seriously. Though what can i do, just live with it like with every other damn thing, take things in my stride i have learnt.

As if that's not enough, i realised that i am no longer even speaking to many of my friends or in this case ex friends. Can't say i never tried, taking the initiative to talk to them and getting one word replies. It is quite clear i am not a bloody dog to waste my time trying to reach out to them when i have not even done anything. As you can see i am totally turned off by this attitude and am not in the best of moods. To think about it i cant even find anyone i can really relate to these days. Probably an indication as to how badly i have failed in life as in it was not enough. Still i guess that i don't really mind after all about being alone in more ways than one cause i no longer expect much from others. talk about being bitter. hah. Well i now no longer have anything to look forward to and probably no meaning in life anyway, maybe only the thought of changing some unjust in the world pushes me on. I would like to see myself as that kind and selfless person i once saw in someone i knew. For now i take comfort in the fact that probably no one bothers to visit my blog any longer and so i can blog more freely and not bother to edit any evil thoughts i may have.